Alone

By myself in the house. It's somewhat lonely, which is a little weird. I'm quite the loner usually, and an afternoon and evening alone was far from rare for me at undergrad, or last year for that matter. But now it feels lonely. I suppose it's because I've grown used to the company.

I can see how this is going to work. Or at least how it's working for the moment. Typically something will happen that I feel a need to write about, then I write about it. This isn't going to be about my work, or any kind of record of my life. That's probably just as well since my life isn't all that interesting and nor is my work. On the other hand I have a halfway witty turn of phrase (I think anyway), and occasionally have something I think is worth saying, so why not go with that?

On that theme, I've always felt that I needed to write down what's great about the quote I used as a blog title. I might as well do it here.

The quote is from Buffy. We watch Andrew telling a story in comfortable study type setting. after a while we hear a knock, and we cut to the reality which is that he's sitting in the toilet with a camcorder. Anya steps in:

Anya: What are you doing?
Andrew: Entertaining and educating.
Anya: Why can't you just masturbate like everyone else?
----Cut to credits--------

OK, so a) That's hilarious, if only from a shock humour perspective.

b) Andrew has always represented the writers, Joss said that his conversations with the other nerds were often taken from those between the writers. Anya has always represented the id. Here is the dictomy at it's starkest.

So see, it's a two level thing. And I love that second level now as much as I loved the first when I saw the programme originally. It appeals for the simple reason that I recognise the flaw in me.

I'm really clever. No, I mean really clever. You know that guy who's just clearly smarter than everyone around him? That's me. So I think I have the opportunity to do great things in my field. I really believe that. I think one of the things that's standing in my way is that I waste my time with frivulrous crap including, but not limited to, masturbation.

So that's why it calls to me. Because right there, in a short witty exchange, is one of the central flaws in my character. It's almost an epigram. What is an epigram?
A dwarfish whole,
It's body brevity,
And wit its soul.